Music

Habits I’m trying to kick,
Can’t get over it
Lovers I hate to admit are the ghost of it
I don’t know why I try anymore
Wasting the days to forget that I’m losing it
Stuck in my ways and I hate that I’m used to it
I don’t know why
I try anymore
You go and I stay,
It’s always right person and wrong way
I hate to be right, please tell me I’m wrong
Please tell me I’m wrong
‘Cause it’s on again, off again
Love me like oxygen
I don’t know what to say or do
On again, off again
Love you like oxygen
You don’t know what I’d do for you
I’m stubborn and brittle
Act like I know a lot
But know very little
I’m growing up but I’m not growing old
And I hate to do anything that I’ve been told
You go and I stay,
It’s always right person and wrong way
I hate to be right, please tell me I’m wrong
Please tell me I’m wrong
‘Cause it’s on again, off again
Love me like oxygen
I don’t know what to say or do
On again, off again Love you like oxygen
You don’t know what I’d do for you

Tell me, why have you been dishonest?
Do I not give you what you need?
You say I’m everything you wanted,
But it’s never enough
No it’s never enough
Carve out the questions when I ask you,
But say you love me through your teeth
You say I’m everything you want and more
But it’s never enough,
No its never enough
But you love me
But you love me
You say you love me like I’m your mistake
I hold on tightly like I’m yours to break
You say you love me more than others do
Like it’s only you
But you love me
But you love me
But it’s never enough
No It’s never enough
No it’s never enough
For you and me
It’s never enough
No it’s never enougn
It’s never enough
For you and me

can I
can I
tonight
can I
there’s a girl out there somewhere you shattered
there’s a heart out there somewhere too cold to break
and I’d rather feel something than nothing
but I can’t do this anymore
I can’t do this anymore
there’s a world out there somewhere that matters
and I keep waiting for it like a knock at the door
and I could wait around to change
but I don’t think I want to anymore
can I, can I be the one who loves you tonight
can I, can I be the one who loves you tonight
tonight, can I be the one who loves you
can I, can I be the one who loves you
can I be the one who loves you tonight
can I be the one who loves you tonight
I didn’t mean to make you cry
I didn’t want to leave
I didn’t mean to waste your time
and I’m still trying to find what happened to me
and I’m still making a mess
and I’m still cleaning up
I’m still crying in my childhood sheets
and I’m still waiting for my mom to come and pick me up
I’m still chasing all my childhood dreams
can I, can I be the one who loves you tonight
can I, can I be the one who loves you tonight
tonight
can I be the one who loves you?
can I, can I be the one who loves you tonight?
can I, can I be the one who loves you tonight
can I, can I be the one who loves you tonight
tonight
can I be the one who loves you?
can I, can I be the one who loves you?

I remember you
The feeling never goes away
I push it to the side
Where all my fears reside
And I’ll never let you stay
I walk around my words
I don’t really know who I am
I see it all in flashes
Until the feeling crashes
And I do it all again
Book of Memories
In my mind
You are tempting
Me tonight
Am I just my mother,
And everything I thought I’d be?
Am I called to you to love until we’re through
And smile when we see?
You’re holding out your hand
I’m crying but I don’t know why
I hate the moment’s end
Can we just pretend
That nothing ends tonight?
Book of Memories
In my mind
You are tempting
Me tonight
Who am I
Who am I
Who am I
It’s in the hands of time
It doesn’t really matter how
We are all a memory
Now

It’s up up up til I fall back down
then it comes back round
It’s up up up til I fall back down
then it comes back round
Bits and pieces of my past mistakes
falling from the rafters of the house I’ve made
But I don’t want to give up now
It’s the only thing I’ve known to doubt
But I am finding my way out,
I’m finding my way out
Then Mara comes before I touch the sky
and pulls me down,
asking why
Then Mara comes before I touch the sky and pulls me in
Why is there a light on in that room I’ve never been in
Right behind the door’s a falling floor
and walls of eyes and eyes
and I’ve been screaming so loud
I’m gonna wake up the house
I’ve been screaming so loud
I’m gonna wake up the house
Then Mara comes before I touch the sky
and pulls me down,
asking why
Then Mara comes before I touch the sky and pulls me in
I’ve been looking for forgiveness
but it never quits
I’ve been looking for forgiveness
with an angry fist
I’ve been running for the open door
each time
each time
It’s up up up til I fall back down
then it comes back round
It’s up up up til I fall back down
then it comes back round

I was only 17
Dreamt of being on the silver screen
I was only 17 when I met you
Living in a haze made by loved ones who had raised me
I knew what I had to be, but I wasn’t there yet
But when I fall asleep, I fly back home
And when I close my eyes I find that there is more to life
than we know
And when I am a stranger in my own bed,
I know that there’s more to this life than …
Thought you were the only one that knew me
I was a stranger in my own heart
And when you left, I thought I never would recover
The mask that I hid under fell apart
But growing up isn’t growing hard
it’s realizing that we’re part of stars
So much love and so much light I’ve yet to see
But I’m not who I thought I’d be
At 17
And when I fall asleep I fly back home
And when I close my eyes I find that there is more to life
than we know
And when I am a stranger in my own bed,
I know that there’s more to this life than …
I’m flying away
I’m flying away
I’m flying away (when I close my eyes)
do you fight it do you keep on running away
do you fight it
is this all you thought you could take
do you fight it
do you really want that or were you told to be
someone else at 17